Slacking off....

I have been absolutely awful about blogging. I thought it would be easy to get back into, but NOPE, i was wrong. I always think about things to blog, and then when it comes down to it, i never get it on the site. Distractions are my main problem. I look at one persons blog, and then it leads me to someone else's blog...etc... I get so sidetracked and spend sometimes hours looking through other peoples blogs [mainly crafty blogs] and i forget about my own sometimes. I hope my blog doesn't hate me for neglecting it so much. I swear ill try to be better. Especially since Peter is going to be heading off to NTC [National Training Center] at Fort Irwin in Cali. It is going to be weird not having him around the house. I know some women are in the mindset that "i get the whole bed to my self. or, I dont have to do his laundry, or cook for him." Yeah, NO. I LOVE having Peter home with me. I love Cooking for him. I love doing laundry [seriously, its the one chore that i actually like doing.] I love seeing him sitting on the couch, or in bed playing video games, or being on his computer. It makes me feel safe. As an Army Wife, i have been told MANY times that i would feel differently when he leaves but i think it is all a matter of personal opinion. When Peter is gone, I am a freaking obsessed person about having all the doors and windows locked. When he is home, i dont even check them. I cant tell you how many nights we went to bed, and the front door was unlocked. [we live on a military base and no one is going to break into a Soldiers home while he is there] I dont feel like i need the WHOLE King sized bed we share, all to my self. I have plenty of space to sprawl out when he is in bed with me. I like to hear him whistling in the shower or singing. I love when he plays Music on his computer and sings along to it. His voice is my favorite thing about him. [well one of my favorite things. haha] I just have been reading on a lot of Army Wife Forums and blogs and pages on Facebook, about Women who dont care that their husbands are gone "because it is part of the job he signed up for". I completely understand him signing up for it and yeah i signed up too because we were ALREADY married Before he joined. Is it such a bad thing to not like having an empty bed, or be able to talk to or see your best friend everyday? I just hope that in time i will be more "ok" with having him gone. For now i will continue to LOVE having him home every second he can be. NOT because i am controlling but because i like to spend time with him. When he is near everything feels completely fine. ♥